We all had the experience of falling asleep and startling awake again. That means that lucidity is in the way of sleeping. Due to tiredness or concentration we may fall asleep while our ordinary waking mind is still ‘up’.
You will find many examples of lucid dreams in my archives, where I was inhibited by the waking mind that I brought into the dream. The waking mind has responsibilities for keeping the body safe and our cultural tendency is to overstretch that responsibility. Our rational mind does not easily understands these transitions. After lucidly falling asleep it sometimes has to deal with the falling away of the borders of our physical self. Experiences where the dream environment and action appears to enter what we first thought of as the safe limits of the inside of our body. The comfortable thickness of the borders of our body will usually keep dreams out of our experience and the mind balanced. The rational mind has an especially hard time integrating information that has no direct relevancy. It may erroneously assume that relevancy to be on the safe side. That is why for many of us it is hard to have a telepathic experience or insights from the dream perspective during the day. We start making assumptions on far too little information.
I sometimes jokingly say that the rational mind of mankind is swaying between two poles: the comfortable bliss of ignorance, where there is nothing complicated to consider, but which is also devoid of inspirations. On the other end we are easily worried over things we are unable to precisely pinpoint the relevance. Like when an accident happens. Before, nobody worried, while it proved not to be safe. After nobody goes there any more, while the problem is known and it may not even be likely it will happen again. Often, also, we will run back for cover into the bliss of ignorance. We need a courageous heart to be patient enough when we do not yet have a deep understanding. Another cultural tendency is to quickly attribute an explanation to calm the mind – or the public for that matter. Fear will always cloud knowledge. Basically because fear is born out of reason and knowledge is not.
So, I can vouch that our rigid waking awareness is not always welcome. I recently drifted lucidly out of my body, to find a bubble right beside me hanging in my bedroom, that I was about to enter. I managed to stay out of it. My rational mind – in control here – was unfamiliar with the event and was not about to enter into the unknown so swiftly. However, my feet had already been inside for a moment and a surge of ideas had come over me. Impressions of body movements from the martial arts. I have some clear memories of a past life in which I am a very focused man who lived the martial arts, so I was ready to accept the bubble as an archive of memories from that life. I shyly dipped my feet back in the bubble. My dream body was filled with sensations and inspiration to perform movements. I made a quite impressive horizontal turn by moving my legs in a certain way. A bit easier than in waking life of course, since I in my dream body I could perform the movement very slowly. But I still didn’t want to be submerged in it, while I am sure that if lucidity had not been in the way, the dream mind would have adapted easily.
You will understand why I think rationality can be in the way here. My rational faculty or better, simply my waking mind, is oriented in a world where we have to be very careful with our actions. And even while I also have experienced that the rational mind can become overconfident in dreaming – another deficit of linear thinking – it is understandable that for most people lucidity in dreams is exceptional. If we were always able to bring our full rational capacities to dreaming, we may begin advertizing in dreams. Dreaming treated as another level of waking can block natural dreaming by either our rigidity or shyness. Similarly we are stripping nature – the dream of Mother Earth – of its abundance. The way that in our culture we have build our waking mind – yes, it has been a conscious effort – may be the main inhibitor of awareness in dreaming. Just like a high school party, where mom and dad are not welcome.
Some dreams may even be totally impossible with a rational observer present, as in dreams when we are not ourselves. I had beautiful dreams wherein my character was completely different from me, but also the setting of the time was anachronous. Once I was an Ottoman noble man trying to save himself from falling to (relative) poverty by wooing an 15 year older countess. I had convinced myself that while she was older she was also still beautiful and even now I distinctly remember her sincere traits.
Or one dream in which I am the rationally impaired helper of a druid. My parents had given me in the care of the druid who saw my intuitive ability, uninhibited by rationality – incidentally the theme of this section. In a section on reincarnation I will go deeper into these dreams.
It is particularly hard to even remember such dreams and other that may be of realms we never heard of. They are not associated with anything in our world view. So these dreams lack familiarity and that’s how they sometimes simply fall out of my memory. I had no reference for them and I never thought of them again because it simply never came up.
However, I met a girl – exceptionally bright – who had dreamed to be in full Roman armor. She hesitantly added that she was a man in that dream. That detail alone may make many of us repress or misplace such a memory. Easy enough as dreams are harder to remember due to the shift in consciousness that necessarily takes place. Usually our waking consciousness will filter those dreams out. If only because we have trained ourselves to search for recognition instead of the unknown.